Did you ever think about how you don't read something the exact same way as anyone else? And I don't just mean that you're different from everyone else, you've had different experiences and influences and ideas and therefor you interpret thing differently than anyone else would, but I mean you actually hear the words in your head in a way that is different from other people. I think we hear the words in our head in the way that we speak, our own cadence is likely how we are going to read something. If this is the case, and I think it is cause otherwise I wouldn't bother writing this, it really means that we're never quite getting the message in the way it was intended. Like I've read fifteen or so books by Kurt Vonnegut, I've got a pretty good handle on the way he would look at a subject, but when I read him I'm hearing it filtered through my own voice in my head, it's not really his voice. And there are tricks you can use in writing to do your best to approximate your voice, but even that can only get you so close. Even if it's a personal message from someone you know very well, you know their cadence, how they think, even if you're trying really hard to read it the way they read it, it still isn't going to quite get you there. I mean, you write something, and you're pretty sure it's as you as it gets, but the second someone else reads it it stops being you and becomes a part of them, a shadow of you, filtered and interpreted in their voice. If this is all at least a little bit true, and again, I think it is, then it says something deeper about us all. I mean, how can someone know you if they can't overcome themself, unintentionally but still. I don't know, I think up some real nonsense sometimes don't I? On a completely unrelated note, goddamn this whole life.