So I'm feeling pretty fucking great right now. This is about as damn good as I've felt in a long while. The closest was that night we shot the not-baseball field scene and Ashleigh and Mike kicked ass, but this is even better. I feel really good, like I'm excited by how good I feel. I've got a sense of clarity and perspective that is just amazing right now. I'm seeing things exactly as they are and I'm loving what I'm seeing. I can't even worry about feeling bad about being dumb lately cause I feel so good and so free. I'm a Tralfalmadorian, seeing all of eternity, all at once, every different moment in history, every different phase of being, all of it. I love the way I feel right now and I plan to do everything in my power to keep this. And I really am so appreciative of how this came about, I can't even begin to say what a gift clarity is. I'm released, free from the bonds of my own creation. It really was masterful. I feel so fucking good right now.