I don't know why this irked me today, because I haven't even talked to anyone yet today, but I'm getting tired of people saying that I read too much into things, that I look too deeply at stuff. Fuck that. You-yeah you!-don't read enough into things, you-yeah you!-don't look deep enough into things. That's just not how I am; I refuse to sit passively and accept whatever comes my way. To me, life is subtext, it's the things we're not saying, the things that are affecting us without us being aware of them. We're all worked on in so many ways by so many things that we don't even know exist and that's the stuff that fascinates me. You could make the argument that I'm reticent in my interpersonal relationships, in the person-to-person, face-to-face aspects of day to day living and you'd be completely right. That's just not how I interact with the world. Yeah, I am skittish and hesitant when it comes to physical life, because that's not what I care about; it's a superficial illusion. I care about the life of the mind, how and why we do and say what we do and say, what we're really saying, what it is that makes us say it, and why we don't just fucking say it. That's what I'm interested in, not the decaying shells we parade around in or the farcical things that spill out of our mouths. Ask yourself-yeah yourself!-why you're not concerned with these things. Why don't you want to explore the subtextuality of life? Is it because you're lazy? Stupid? Afraid? I'm not saying that I'm better than anyone, I'm not, I'm just one person on a planet of billions. What I'm saying is, this is how I am, it is part of what makes me who I am and, frankly, I'm fucking awesome. Oh, and as for these accusations that I'm "hiding in words": Fuck you! Buy a dictionary!